South Sudanese by Mer

A call for unity and identity amongst South Sudanese.
Our identity is South Sudan, we are one people, beautiful in all forms of our ethnic origins


“Many parents t…

“Many parents tell their children: “Stop
dreaming, live in reality”. Which one? The world is what it is, plus
what we think and believe it is. We fill the world’s peace with our
thoughts, feelings and desires. We project our illusions and traumas
on it as if it were a movie screen

Alejando Jodorowosky

Conversations with Deng

I’m always momentarily rendered speechless when I meet him for obvious reason; yet again I’m constantly fascinated by how his mind is always at work. I met Deng in 2010 through a mutual friend and we instantly clicked.

He is a former lost boy who found his way to Plano Texas, but just as the prodigal son he returned to South Sudan in 2007 to build the nation that was effortlessly destroyed by years of violence.His Story is not a unique story although the man himself is unique, I have always felt the need to share some of the conversations I have had with him I call these session making sense of South Sudan

S.1Deng. Only the dead have seen the end of the war

J85: War is sometimes fabricated and not as natural as it seems

S.2There is a Dinka saying “Let them eat first and talk later. Or don’t talk to me until i finish eating” Our leaders problem is the lack of better alternatives People are not active !People are idle/..Everyone wants to eat but not to work.

J85:Haha haha

Deng:Now Riek Machar(Vice president),and Wani Igga(Speaker of the National assembly, and Pagan Amum(SG SPLM) have all come out publically they want to run against Salva Kiir(President)

J85:True but I wouldn’t vote for them,what we need is a leader with the right qualities,with a vision and program.

Deng: The problem in South Sudan is that the Opposition is given a Position,We are supporting Salva Kiir that’s why we are poor. This country is for the ruling and those who don’t want to be ruled…those who want to be subjected. while those who oppose  form political parties however once you become an opposition salva buys you in.Most of opposition is in Government or working with Government.We do not want to disappoint the system and that’s why we will remain poor for the rest of our lives.

J85: what needs to happen then?

Deng:Time to stop bitching and complaining!Let that person (however wants to be president) come out and tell what the hell he can do for south sudan whether you are a Dinka bari or from a small comunity etc..come out,People are not happy and are divided. If you come up with a better alternative. You are more likely to succeed They cannot kill you..your party protects you.the reason Isaiah Abraham was killed was because he was part of SPLM.He was not part of the opposition.Your party should  protect youI,m learning a lot.i tell you People need to come out. We need to stop running away. If we had all run away during the war. This country would not have been liberated.we need to fight the war internally. For example our foundation, We are being suppressed. Nobody wants to support us they are scarred. If the red army declared a political party. We have more members although not registered. The majority are not happy with the movement.

” Quote her:(Anaïs Nin) Said Henry Miller

Quote ANais Nin SaiD Henry Miller

1. The possession of knowledge does not kill the sense of wonder and mystery. There is always more mystery.
2. Ordinary life does not interest me. I seek only the high moments. I am in accord with the surrealists, searching for the marvelous.
3. Life is truly known only to those who suffer, lose, endure adversity and stumble from defeat to defeat.
4. Dreams pass into the reality of action. From the actions stems the dream again; and this interdependence produces the highest form of living.
5. Where the myth fails, human love begins. Then we love a human being, not our dream, but a human being with flaws.
6. I have tried to be not neurotic, not romantic, not destructive, but may be all of these in disguises.
7. I am only responsible for my own heart, you offered yours up for the smashing my darling. Only a fool would give out such a vital organ.
8. There were always in me, two women at least, one woman desperate and bewildered, who felt she was drowning and another who would leap into a scene, as upon a stage, conceal her true emotions because they were weaknesses, helplessness, despair, and present to the world only a smile, an eagerness, curiosity, enthusiasm, interest.
9. Our culture made a virtue of living only as extroverts. We discouraged the inner journey, the quest for center. So we lost our center and have to find it again
10. And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.
11. Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don’t know how to replenish it’s source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing.
12. We do not grow absolutely, chronologically. We grow sometimes in one dimension, and not in another; unevenly. We grow partially. We are relative. We are mature in one realm, childish in another. The past, present, and future mingle and pull us backward, forward, or fix us in the present. We are made up of layers, cells, constellations.

Quotes by Anaïs Nin